freedom of thought The quote above was posted online through Life Learning Magazine and below is my response:

This attitude does not respect the child then, and why they may become frustrated, uncooperative, defiant, unresponsive, even vindictive. Why respect adults or elders when in his eyes, they have no concern for what he wants or likes? The child will model and reciprocate if the child is respected. He can then learn without limitations imposed on him and will be at ease and content.

Freedom to choose how to spend one’s time does this, but i am not speaking of a permissive environment with absolutely no rules, no right and wrong. Rather, when above all, he is treated nearly equal to an adult, he/she perceives to have autonomy and ownership over himself, he will not only take charge of his life learning but may accept total responsibility for his actions as well. This understanding has a profound effect on the Self.

I cannot tell you what this realization did for me in my late teens, that i could not continue to blame anyone else for my life as it was and the fact i was mainly responsible for my own misery due to my thoughtless, immature decisions. My life changed from that moment.

Above all, even if a child has the negative behaviors i listed: frustration, defiance, vindictiveness, in response to OTHERS controlling what he is allowed to learn, most every child still longs for approval.

I find this longing for approval and being appreciated to be universal and a great way to help that child learn and feel the best about himself, which has a domino effect in every sphere of his being: intellectual/cognitive, emotional/behavioral, spiritual, and perhaps even physical by relieving stress and anxiety. Only then is the child able to reach his full potential and develop his character. Character will set him up for success or failure the rest of his life. SOURCE: ” How Children Succeed: Grit, Curiosity, and the Hidden Power of Character” Jul 2, 2013 by Paul Tough.


Ok so ima post a link after just blogging before that i don’t normally posts link, lol.


The content of this short article is something that i HAVE learned and mentioned on previous posts about the importance of being ‘in the moment’ with your children and even life in general. However, smh…this title called to me:


yeah, that’s me about 50% of the time. It used to be met like, 80% of the time.

As i have mentioned before, it is my daughter (Dd) who showed me the way and what was best for her. All praise Alone is to God.
I am still growing in this way and still learning may Allah increase me in knowledge and keep me on the straight path. I thank our Lord who showed me the error of my ways in teaching and parenting my kids.

I think people in general go to two extremes when raising their children: they either raise them the way they were raised or they raise them completely the opposite way. Unless there was perfection in their own upbringing, neither of these extremes is good. Moderation is the key and balance is always good.

I read many, many books on parenting and psychology, starting at the age of nineteen. I did not want to repeat the harms that were done to me. However, we tend to copy the speech and actions of our own parents as we age, i think. At least that’s the way it was with me. We also behave the same way because as an adult, we have the same stresses our parents did! I forgive my parents, though. Khalas, here is the article, enjoy. I would like to hear your thoughts on it.


verb (used with object), facilitated, facilitating.


to make easier or less difficult; help forward (an action, a process, etc.):

Careful planning facilitates any kind of work.


to assist the progress of (a person).

Facilitate: this is our duty as parents. I am not the first home-schooler to use this term nor to be the last. This has been the best way for my children to learn, with me assisting, helping or just being available if they have a question. It does not mean i do not ever ‘assign’ something, i do. However, i am more focused now in what interests them, and what they want, al hamdulilah.

Our task is to provide an education for the kind of kids we have…..Not the kind of kids we used to have, or want to have, or the kids that exist in our dreams.” ~ Mary Kay Utech

It isn’t about me. It was never about me. They don’t belong to me nor does anything i own belong to me. They are a ni’mah from Allah but also a test. They are borrowed, loaned to me and will return to their Lord, just as i will. May Allah guide them and give them the best in this life and the afterlife . May Allah give me righteous children who will pray for me after i pass!

I am so grateful to have found this way surely, our Lord is Most Merciful. Now i realize His Mercy extends to my children, of course. And we know God answers the supplications of the children and the oppressed.
~ Peace


I don’t usually post other people’s links except when i used them recently and find them helpful or they are a reference to my post.

If a website has many resources, i usually list it to the right of the screen as you can see, in shaaAllah.

I explored this blog today al hamdulilah has many useful activities and some advice, maa shaa Allah. It includes the livecam of al masjidal haram ūüôā


I hope you are in the best of faith and health.

Just a quick post I want to elaborate each but just wanted to get this out.¬† Will edit later, plz check for updates;) Thanks for visiting! If just one thing I write helps someone, than I have served my purpose. Don’t forget the great links and resources to the right of your screen, on the bottom for cell phones.

11 steps I took that made a sudden, dramatic change with my kids and home

1. Listened fully (explain more later)
2. Smiled more often, frowned less
3. Stopped critisizing
4. Stopped yelling or even raising voice
5. Consistent consequences without emotion
6. Specific instructions, expectations and feedback(praise)
7. Stated my issues, (mistakes I made with them in the past) how I would solve them, asked for help and reminded them what they want is important to me
8. Stopped threatening or using ultimatums
9. Respectful and Fair. Ex: I ate your leftover takeout without asking while you were asleep because I was hungry and there was nothing to cook. Before I ate your food, I decided to pay you $4 for it, so I will give it you asap.
10. Did my best to keep my word or promises and when I wasn’t able, worked out a substitution agreed upon between us
11. I required acceptable responses to myself and adults: yes, okay, yes Ma’am,¬†Yes/No Sir.
Not: what?, mumbling or silence.


Said YES as often as i was able. and God Alone makes us able, we praise Him and seek his forgiveness.


philosophy, not that i am an expert.

The below is a continuation of my previous post. It was too long so, I broke it up into two posts realizing the second half became another topic; practical applications and learning philosophies.

Notes on This week:

a new fascination with Science and String Theory:

Once my kids saw me spending time¬†watching a¬†three part series¬†by PBS called,¬†“The Elegant Universe” they wanted to watch it also, and¬†it was received very well by them. I don’t think I would have understood these concepts till age 30+ and I certainly wasn’t exposed to these fascinating theories till I was an adult. We borrowed library books from the recommended Science books list of the Well Trained Mind and they picked out some on Physics on their own.

It‚Äôs amazing where the human mind goes when it‚Äôs not being led.” Jennifer Head, published in Life Learning Magazine.

Dd(14) a voracious reader, has never been that interested in Science or History and Math was a struggle. Once she was not forced (as in public, charter, and online school at home) to learn certain subjects, in a pre-established time table, she became interested in them on her own. Ok well, she tolerates my enthusiasm for History. And I am shaking my head in disbelief now that I can say there is little to no resistance in Math. She does it on her own from books I have bought and from the library to fun websites online and lessons on Khanacademy.org. Best of all, she likes it! She understands. Math, the hated subject, the struggle for YEARS, she can test herself, find discrepancies, review and master it all on her own. I am delighted and proud of her. It is hard to believe that MATH could have caused SO much problem in our relationship and the harmony of our home, because of an arbitrary time table and the pressure of others!

She was able to stop caring that certain family members didn’t approve or support her decision to leave public school, they even took away travel to see family. They made it clear she would not receive gifts or plane tickets as long as she didn’t return to school with proof of grades. I however, took longer to stop caring. smh….me caring what they thought and how it affected my daughter actually affected my daughter MORE because of my stress and pressure on her for her to perform. Once we made it just about learning, I stopped caring how it looked to them, and KNEW I was doing the right thing FOR HER, she came out of her shell and was able to blossom. May Allah keep me on this path and not let me forget what I have learned, or regress.
“Our Lord! condemn us not if we forget or fall into error; our Lord! Lay not on us a burden like that which Thou didst lay on those before us; Our Lord! lay not on us a burden greater than we have strength to bear. Blot out our sins and grant us forgiveness. Have mercy on us. Thou art our Protector; help us against those who stand against faith.” (286)

Appreciation of historical fiction:

As a public school attendee (didn’t graduate but got my GED in 11th and went to college) a passionate reader, with decades of independent study of a vast array of books, I am astounded I was never introduced nor had discovered the genre historical fiction. I didn’t even know it existed! How is that possible?! However, every book store owner within a ten mile radius has been happy to fill the gap with many suggested books. You know how it is, when you learn about something you see it everywhere when actually, it was always there but because it was unfamiliar it didn’t “register” and you took no notice.

So I have been able to pick many up, including kids historical fiction at sidewalk sales or thrift stores. I have even read some “children’s” books under historical fiction myself but I give them historical fiction for what they are learning at the time. We sometimes watch movies for the period or person they are studying as well.

Ds(10) continues building all forms of swings in the yard and has plenty of outdoor play. I try to squelch the mom desire to tell him, “you’re gonna get hurt” or “you’re too high in that tree” or command “wear knee pads when you ride your skateboard”. Believe me, when he insists upon something i know will have consequences but i allow him to do it, the lesson is learned much better on his own with ‘natural consequences’. He didn’t wear long pants when skateboarding, he skinned his knee. I never had to tell him to wear long pants again.
It was the same with walking through the woods; i suggested pants because he would get itchy/scratched, he wouldn’t so i let it go. He took an immediate shower upon arriving home with vigorous comments which i refrained from an “i told you so’ and he wears thick pants through the woods now.
I approach with the same attitude such as wearing a coat/jacket, (the cold) wearing tennis shoes instead of sandals and wearing socks. He complains now all his shoes smell. I refuse to buy him more because i asked he wear socks. So now, he knows he must hand wash his shoes by himself. He knows he must do this so he can bear wearing his shoes! I will not wash his shoes for him or save him from what he chose to do. Once I feel he is being responsible or he saves up his allowance, he will get another pair of shoes.

It may sound harsh holding him accountable for his choices¬†but it’s working with him. I can be kind but firm, understanding and forgiving without being lenient.¬†Consistency is the¬†key.¬†Alternatively, I say “yes” much more often than I use to, and it has made¬†a world of difference¬†for both of them: in their mood, their attitude¬†while¬†improving our connection. mA

My children are mostly fearless, which i now see the benefits of. Wrong way to end a sentence:) I feel the advantages of allowing them to be more independent and to make their own choices outweigh the risks. For the most part, they’ve learned to respect and listen to me because they found out through natural consequences that i was right:)

Watching home videos, i found surprisingly i used to be a very permissive parent, from toddler to ten. That extreme wasn’t healthy either. Mentioning the above examples is important for me not because I feel i am right about how i approach it and others are not, but because i had begun to coerce my children in every little thing. I ‘lost’ control and that was how i dealt it. i am controlling by nature, i think. Perhaps that is a modern woman thing?

I have learned forcing a child may work temporarily and give a parent momentary relief but in the long run, is NOT a solution.
So i don’t force but It’s not that i allow my son to be dangerous either. I allow him to be a child and a boy. The protective mom gene kicks in and you worry and nag, forgetting your own childhood. I had to remember I roamed miles away from home and i was fine. Of course, it was a different time.

Seriously, I look back in wonder and know¬†God protected me. I grew up in the country and yes, none of us locked our doors but we had rattlesnakes and spiders, coyotes and once a mountain lion on the loose. I lived. I got lost several times and had to climb the nearest hilltop to see my neighborhood.¬†When i¬†got hurt, i walked home. I wasn’t a cryer or attention seeker. Ironic, because i was in public school.
Growing up in the country I realize now i was free to choose how i spent my spare time. I also had personal relationships with my neighbors, knew the ins and outs of their houses, along with their pets, gardens and projects. I learned more from family, adults and elderly neighbors, than I ever did from my school-age friends. I also loved nature, watched wildlife, followed the creeks, and knew all the deer trails like the back of my hand.


My best memories were of my childhood and i want my kids to have the same, not cooped-up in classrooms without windows, separated from the real world and nature. I never want them to check the clock a million times, watching the hands on the clock, waiting that agonizing last hour of school till the bell rings and they’re set free.

While this is what i want for them and was they best for them these last few years, i have always been open to what THEY wanted. They have both attended school, and when my daughter was in 5th grade, it was her decision to return to homeschooling. Now she has chosen to attend high school and will start in August this year, God willing.

My kids aren’t instilled with the prevalent ‘stranger danger’ attitude, which enables them to have wonderful conversations with adults. My son has a personal relationship with our mail lady and knows everyone on our street. He goes for walks with our Hispanic neighbor who has three little girls and no sons. Both my kids want to learn Spanish to speak to him without relying on his girls to translate!

Of course because i am a hoarder of books, i’ve got a couple books on learning Spanish and even a textbook as well. Dd picks them up at her leisure but prefers the faster method of videos online. I’m helping her with flashcards and vocabulary. I understand more Spanish than I can speak, so it’s a refresher for me and we can learn together;)

In regards to safety and other adults my kids have been instructed on what constitutes danger and what is and is not acceptable, al hamdulilah. May Allah protect and guide my children, grant me patience and wisdom. Ameen

Dd shares animal husbandry and breeding tips with our corner neighbors who breed guinea pigs. She has considered, discussed and planned a leaf raking business with her friend down the street. Believe it or not, she is an introvert but look how she benefits without school.
Socialization in school is a joke. My introvert shines now, a word i would have never used before to describe her, she was just sullen. Shines in real life: without pressures, constraints, limitations, inflexible staged curricula, deadlines, stress, fear of fitting in, the list goes on. She enrolled in karate. Yes, I nudged her but i promised if she took ONE introductory class she didn’t have to continue but she liked it. She is self motivated and confident in a way she never was in public school. The only motivation i remember is her wanting to be on time because she was severely embarrassed when late!

“Growing without schooling” has it’s challenges and i won’t say it’s always sunshine and rainbows. Sometimes I want to throw in the towel but then almost every day I am reminded of why I home school. Not just from seeing all the negatives of current educational trends and modern culture but I love the ‘light bulb’ moments when my kids ‘get’ something or when they overcome a challenge. I admire how many ideas and interests they have when i don’t make them follow a list of learning objectives or a hard structure curricula. I revel in the joy of just being together. What has been the most amazing of this journey is NOT how much I was able to ‘impart knowledge’ to them, but how much they have taught me.

Muhammad, peace be upon him, always thought the best of people and they responded to that. He always had a smile for them and they strove to please him. When he was displeased he didn’t yell or become angry. He wasn’t critical but reprimanded adults and children gently, without embarrassing them. He was the best example and REMAINS the best to emulate. I am reminded of this constantly the more I learn of his sunnah, parenting, and modern psychology.

If it works with other kids and mine or i read it online, surely it’s in the sunnah, i find. ūüôā

In life and education i must give my kids a balance of freedom and expectation of responsibility while trusting and listening. I just don’t feel I can go wrong with that. and God knows best.

I’d like to acknowledge a few women whose words, stories, blogs or comments online have inspired me. While i may not fully agree with anarchist beliefs or a ‘radical unschooling lifestyle’ these mothers are no less pioneers in the unschooling movement and to restoring children’s dignity and rights. When it comes to their children’s growth, learning and meeting each individual child’s needs these ladies are inspirational. With wise words, sound advice and much experience, they are a comfort for moms and a breath of fresh air in the mainstream ‘unattached parenting’ trends.

I’ve noticed a gradual shift from the unnatural parenting norms, to a more intuitive, thoughtful and sensitive way, thankfully. I feel this is partially due to these women’s contributions whose passion and advocacy for all children led the natural parenting movement. I hope many more parents and educators adopt the natural, respectful and individualized way of allowing kids the freedom to learn and grow on their own terms.

I am indebted to these women whether I spoke to them or did not have the pleasure of meeting them. Keep up the good work *and remember you will never go wrong by putting your kids first:)

Listed fairly chronologically:
Paved my way (furthest back):

Contributors of Mothering magazine
Lisa Russell, writer. Current home: http://www.gypsymom.com/ my inspiration originally at http://mrshannigan.wordpress.com/
Carol Pavliska, homeschooling conference speaker, blogger. http://sardinesinacan.blogspot.com/

Learned more (way back):

Home Education magazine (snail mail subscriptions still available but digital is cheaper)
Life Learning Magazine (when still in tree wasting, shiny pages and lovely holding form) The void will never be filled *sob*
http://www.lifelearningmagazine.com/ digital is quite cheap, still a treat:)
Sandra Dodd, unschooling advocate. http://sandradodd.com
Wendy Priesnitz editor/creator several magazines. Champion for parents and kids everywhere.

Finally and continuing:

Grace Llewellyn, educator and author. Her groundbreaking “Teenage Liberation Handbook” had me adamantly shaking my head in agreement with her descriptions of school and learning yet disbelief over her thorough grasp of the problems and issues of modern kids trapped in compulsory schooling. I wish i’d had this book at the age of ten!

Astra Taylor, film maker and writer http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tM-DtE6mkeU
Idzie Desmarais¬† ‘unschooled’ adult and writer. I discovered her blog, a delight. One of the few i subscribe to and read consistently http://yes-i-can-write.blogspot.com/
Dayna Martin
, author, speaker. http://thesparklingmartins.blogspot.com/

Some of the smartest advise i’ve seen and best¬†dialogue i’ve heard

I met the father and son at a speaking engagement. Scheduled speeches are free, materials may be purchased.
I found myself in jaw-dropping awe listening to their common sense, non emotional approach to parenting. They had me spellbound with their candor and stories, both humorous and serious. I believe some of the CD’s are worth the cost, and i rarely promote any product. They give dynamic advice, immediately applicable. Many American families would be healed if they applied the techniques taught through celebrate calm. However, most of what they teach is also in the hadeeth of our Prophet, the athaar(narrations) of the sahabah and sayings of the scholars. Listening to the founder speak was a kick in the *ss wonderful reminder for me.

http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/freedom-learn (Dr. Peter Gray)

Awakened** and Increased my understanding:

Last but not least, what i call ‘the two Johns’; their names must be known and their words heard: John Holt and John Taylor Gatto. Without Holt, there could not have been Gatto.

John Holt, teacher and writer, the premiere founder of home education, some say the father of it and finally the unschooling method. John Gatto, an impassioned educator and former teacher making waves:)
I hope he continues to open more minds to our modern educational system, motivating educators and parents.

For our children and our future we must work to create change through open forums, grassroots effort and even legislation. If that cannot be attained we can make the intention and change it with our hearts, our minds and our hands within our own families and those we know. Above all, don’t stay silent, share what you’ve learned and what you know with others so we can collectively raise¬†the next¬†generation mindfully, with tolerance and purpose.

*a mom has to have ‘me’ time also!

** Allah is the All Aware, the Opener and Awakener. He, glory be to Him, Alone is the Best of Planners, the Beneficent, the Merciful, Owner of the Day of Judgment.

…and a new start
homeschool last year

An Important distinction I made recently and lesson learned was to put Aqeedah and Quran first, academics second. I don’t just mean schedule-wise like lessons on religion first or Quranic memorization in the morning before academic subjects are covered I mean philosophically, practically and mentally first. Of course with learning everything is connected and can be experienced together but that’s a whole ‘nother post;)

Days I awake alert, pray, and began the day cheerfully reviewing our lesson plans and my to do list, the day¬†goes smoothly,¬†is productive and I accomplish the goals i set for myself and my children’s learning or activities for that day.

I realized for quite a while now¬†those days are infrequent and in the past. Lately I felt little was accomplished¬†and that our whole household was dragging through the day, starting later and later, not getting into the swing of things till the afternoon. I became frustrated meals were no longer on time or in a reasonable period (breakfast before 11, lunch before 3) I was annoyed their chores weren’t done, I had return to nagging and criticizing and by ‘asr, only a couple lessons had been finished.

That overwhelmed feeling became worse and worse: the house wasn’t the way I wanted it, the kids were starting the day too late, we weren’t getting enough done, in my opinion. And no, I’m not going to say the common revelation that unschoolers have was that we needed to slow down, de-school, have less schedule or structure or enjoy nature. Thank God, I have realized a lot of these and my children have shown me the error of my way that my idealized picture of a schoolroom complete with textbooks, desks and posters replicated in our house did not appeal to them nor yield much result. I mean, they¬†go in there to get supplies¬†or grab a book and read on the¬†small, comfy¬†IKEA couch or perhaps¬†even play with our cockatiel but sitting at the¬†antique desk I bought and letting me “teach” them…..no.

The word that comes to my mind is liberation. Once I was able to ‘let go’ of all the common, erroneous ideas of education and release my faulty way of thinking, my children and I were so much happier.¬†Really, I am not trying to¬†copy the word¬†of the title from one¬†of the most appreciated¬† and well written books in the history of education*…it is just the perfect word. To know¬†something is to know it’s opposite and the opposite of liberation would be in my mind, slavery.

My mind¬†was held¬†captive to the idea that¬†learning must¬†be represented as a schoolroom in my house and that was the only way my children would learn. Silly, because that was not the way i was raised but it was how i was ‘schooled’.

Back to my original point, realizing the tone in our home had shifted from¬†following interests,¬†open discussions, and harmony to one of drudgery. That nice flow¬†and balance we had that comes when you’re free to learn or pursue¬†what you want, when you want,¬†while still¬†setting goals was gone.¬†¬†Being carefree and the lightness in¬†our chests¬†but still¬†feeling our¬†time was well spent,¬†meaningful…the positive charge exiting in our home was absent.

So I decided to forget worrying about the lesson plan and announced we would start the day by reading or memorizing Quran. It made a difference immediately. It wasn’t just in the kids attitudes and what they finished, it was MY mentality and demeanor changed. After all, the feeling in the home usually reflects the mom. I mean, the husband can set the tone and he is the leader but the mother is the the love, the example¬†and the teacher.

What a relief! It’s not that I took charge and we got the house in order, or that our prayers were on time, but that I felt confident that if¬†I put God first, everything would be all right. It goes without saying of course, the importance of fajr prayer offered at it’s prescribed time.
Once I began having them¬†work on their surah memorization or having a short halaqa¬†discussion, I stopped feeling that weight becoming heavier throughout the day; that familiar, nagging worry ceased. I knew if we began our school day right, in worship and remembrance of Him, subhana wa ta’ala, my children would learn whatever academics essential for their future.

When I experienced that certainty, that comfort, I relaxed, the scowl on my face replaced by a smile, and the light-heartedness returned. I rediscovered just the simple joy of being with my kids. Once again i felt the liberation.
Instead of dragging through the day, with that feeling of defeat by dinnertime, I was relishing each moment with my kids. New thoughts, more reflections, revelations how history, science and current news were all connected and explained through Quran and hadeeth, were easily discovered and shared among us. maa shaa Allah. There was less arguing, more play and camaraderie, and more wonder in the world around us.

I mentioned to my teenage daughter what a pleasure she was to be around lately “I’m glad you noticed,” she retorted. I didn’t take offense, in fact the opposite. I could tell by her tone she appreciated my words but was hurt. I had betrayed her. After the long journey of discovery and realization that culminated in allowing her the freedom to learn on her own I had backtracked and returned to ‘do this, do that’… ‘why haven’t you…..

I do believe children should obey but I also believe adults should apologize to children when they are in the wrong and I¬†try to do¬†that. My wrong had been returning to the negative, hostile mom from the past instead of the positive, encouraging, and relaxed one as I was after my ‘enlightenment’. Instead of my usual need to make this into a lesson,¬†with a¬†minimum statement (lecture)¬†responding to her, “I’m glad you noticed” I remained silent and just ‘took it’. I think that meant more to her¬†than any¬†admittance or promises¬†I could have made. and Allah knows best.


Just a quick post of a blog I found very useful : http://www.islamiccopywork.wordpress.com
Seeing the simple address, I wish I’d thought of an easier blog url than mine ūüôā

Her blog is a practical guide to implementing the copywork aspect from the four part method of writing recommended by the Well Trained Mind.

I could not add it to the Blogroll on the right side of my page, so i’m posting it here.

I wasn’t on wordpress for a while and my reader showed up. I love reading other people’s thoughts and ideas. I knew there were many blogs I found beneficial that I was following but had forgotten them so I went to edit, the only way i know of that enables me to see the whole list.

I did not even know I had added Islamic Copywork, but it’s just what I was looking for! al hamdulilah.

Thanks for visiting and i’d love to read your blog if you have one! If not, leave your favorite one in the comments, please ūüôā

We are here to help one another and share. < O mankind! We created you from a single (pair) of a male and a female, and made you into nations and tribes, that ye may know each other (not that ye may despise (each other). Verily the most honoured of you in the sight of Allah is (he who is) the most righteous of you. And Allah has full knowledge and is well acquainted (with all things). Chapter The Dwellings 49:13 (Quran)

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